What I brought with me

I decided to put the woes of the world aside and think about my everlasting contribution. And if each one fails I still contributed more than some. Because with every breath of air is HOPE. Hope each day an addict, a thief, a bratty kid has to change. Hope that each person that wakes up after each sleep will see and embrace their true potential and purpose. Hope. I brought a lot of it and more will come from that which I brought!

What I brought with me...

I brought one in who still holds her looks,

I think she lost more than she took.

Another I brought with eyes of blue,

I wonder though if his pride will calm, 

so he can get what he is due.

Another I brought just like before,

He's quiet and shy but smart as could be,

He could cure a cause if he wanted too,

If only he could believe and see.

Trice now I brought another just like the others,

but a special breed of energy he does possess,

and he only need gain control and direct it for success.

The next I brought who surprised us all,

God caught him up, that was his call.

I will meet him one glorious day,

so there's not much else to say.

I brought yet another like the first,

thick hair and as smart as others too,

Attractive is she but less energy used,

If only a purpose worth reaching for,

She could find and desire to open that door.

Another I brought whose smile does shine,

Ambition and life she does not lack,

But I fear her trust could set her back.

The last I brought I do not know,

For his destiny was to fulfill and show,

another family love, so I let him go.

There are eight altogether, complete at this time,

I've passed on what I could, regrets are many,

I'll watch them bring in some more to shine,

and watch them raise them while I smirk to myself.

They won't see the personalities, the way I can see from here.

They are unaware they are raising themselves,

and now they can feel the fear, 

of loving such rebellion they will always hold dear.

Merry Christmas 

A Medical Experience

This is not about a news article as my others have been. It is a personal experience I endured with my client who I care for about four days a week. One of my duties is to take her to her doctor appointments. The woman is 79 years old who had a stroke three years ago and a fall that broke her ankle a year ago. I took her on after her ankle healed. I should add I am a skeptic of everyone and everything including the entire medical industry.
The first appointment we made with her ankle specialist was because her ankle hurt her when she walked. That appointment resulted in a $100.00 ankle brace to hold the ankle in place during her free physical therapy which lasted only a month before she had to pay $39.00 a month and I have to guide her during this. I have now become a physical therapist! I could already see a pattern. The doctor then recommended she see the stroke specialist after we complained that her hip on the same side as her once broken but still painful ankle is. My first question was 'What could a stroke specialist do three years after the fact for her aching thigh?' He did not know but better to find out if anything could be done. If something could be done she would know. I now thought this was an entire waste of time.
So now she, and two health insurance companies, has paid for a doctor appointment, ankle bracelet, physical therapy and soon a second doctor.
Now the second doctor. This doctor walks in saying she doesn't know why the ankle doctor referred her but let's take a look and see. I feel better already! She pushed and poked and asked if she was still in physical therapy. Yes. "Well, there is nothing I can do but sometimes a stroke victim can have small improvements up to five years after a stroke so continue to do physical therapy." Really? That's it? So I said "Her hip hurts her. This was not caused by the stroke but after her fall. 'She doesn't recall if they x-rayed anything other than her ankle' The specialist glanced at the computer saying she did not see where they x-rayed the hip but it could be her muscle rubbing against a bone and she could receive cortisone shots. These shots however can cause a spike in sugar and she does have diabetes....but we can give her the shots. (What? Really?) Then she decides we should x-ray her hip and see if it's something else, could be bruising after all.
While waiting for someone to bring her to the x-ray room I am also thinking. Now we have the cost of the ankle doctor, ankle brace, physical therapy, stroke specialist doctor, and an x-ray. Possibly leading to cortisone shots which leads to a visit to the sugar doctor and depending on what they decide...my imagination goes nuts thinking they will give her a sugar effecting pill that will effect her blood pressure, another pill for blood pressure that will cause heart trouble, another pill for the heart that will cause kidney failure and so we need a pill for the kidneys .....and on and on we go. Plus don't forget the follow ups.
I took her out of there and told her we will consult the third doctor, her regular physician, who started all this to begin with. FUCKED UP BULLSHIT!
Think about this. Really think about one simple recommendation from her regular doctor over a minor complaint about her sore ankle and where it took us, so far. How much money passes through the medical industry on all levels. I have elderly clients that take over 20 pills a day for all sorts of imperfections. One pill usually causes a reaction that results in another pill that causes a reaction that results in 20 pills a day until death. And the major payer is....the one who will die. Everyone else lives and pays their mortgage.
If I am ever ill with a disease, I fully expect to die. But, I promise I am not paying anyone's mortgage. I'll just accept the inevitable and save myself the hype, aggravation and false hope.
Moral of the story....go holistic and don't fall for everything you're doctor tell you.

The Lunch box debate

There were a couple things I was thinking after reading this story. First reaction would be 'shame on that teacher, a sub at that, for interfering and sending a note home scolding the parent for the lunch they chose for their little girl'. How bad could the lunch be? Well, parents are pretty stupid these days. She might have meant well. Was she over sensitive about healthy eating, or a nutritional nut case? Was she just needing to show superior control over her position as a teacher? So I read on seeking to find what the big fuss was about.
I burst out laughing when I read that the father of the 8 year old second grader was a DOCTOR and one specializing in obesity Medicine at that. Something along the lines of having expert knowledge in health. The child according to daddy is a very independent girl who knows what's best for her even with out life's experience or the kind of education dad received. Certainly dad taught her the basics of his knowledge, right? Wrong. Pickles, string cheese and ham meat are great! You don't need bread to supply a good meal. I agree and try not to eat it myself. But it was the idea of four chocolate bars that had me laughing and understanding where the teacher was coming from. Really dad? Four and a bag of marshmallows? As a doctor should he know that one chocolate bar is suffice. Does he know chocolate that is ate on a regular basis or in large amounts (like any sugar products) not only causes obesity but also depression.
This dad who obviously doesn't understand the old school of raising kids when a parent monitored and insisted, not compromised with the children. The old school upbringing of kids resulted in respect, something these new improved techniques of self sufficient and independent decision making children as the doctor implores, are failing at everything in life that really matters. Look around at these kids today. Even the best or most successful collage kids are self absorbed sheeple who know everything they decide themselves they know.
Selfies, loose sex, abortions, sleeping with both sexes very acceptable and the only way a person defines there worth in life is through monetary riches. Sorry but that is what I see in today's culture of new age child rearing where dad doesn't really have the say so anymore, he just compromises all the time. He thinks he is molding a reliable thinking machine whose independence relieves him of his parental duties. He isn't even just spoiling the kid he is forfeiting his parental obligation all together. Wait until she's 16. She won't listen to one word he says later in life because at the age of 8 dad said 'we leave it up to her' Why would you leave anything up to an eight year old? I bet she'll be ready to vote by the age of 12.
A scripture I read once said that children will rule the world. I marveled at that statement (I don't remember which verse and chapter) thinking what that could mean? Now I know when parents decided kids know best. I dread the next generation coming with so many parents who think they are super parents by treating the children like short adults, when really they just don't want to be bothered guiding them by telling them 'NO' but instead say 'Let's make a deal'. It seems to me that this child bringing not one but four chocolate bars (AKA:CANDY BARS) and a bag of marshmallows may not be ready to make decisions for herself just yet.
I guess if they are independent for their age....or is that neglected.....or demanding little spoiled brats redefined by using a big mature sounding word like 'independent'? For instance: 'She isn't neglected, she's independent' or 'She isn't spoiled or demanding she is just very independent'
The child, as any child does know, candy bars and marshmallows are exactly what's desired over what any school lunch has to offer! If you were a kid, what would you choose?
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Poo Poo Drinking sludge

According to Bill Gates you can drink poop. Ya, you heard it right poop from your bum! Soon bum poo water will be coming out of your faucet and into your baby's formula, your child's kool-aid and your coffie. I wonder how long before I can no longer trust the bottled water. I thought chancing drinking out of a plastic bottle was enough but now.....!!!!!!
Bill Gates is promoting a machine that two sick minded engineers invented that takes gross smelling smooshy or logged poop and through a process becomes sparkling clean healthy water. Bill Gates even pretends to drink this shit water! ewwww! I knew Bill Gates was gross but never expected to see him do that (even if it was real non poopy water made special for the elite hogs).
The kicker is how they go into how much money the enterprise that owns this death machine will make, lots of cash. Like money from outputs, electricity, water and ash. Ash? Sounds yummy. Money, money, money. I can't wait to see what they plan to do with vomit!
I doubt this will really get off the ground but just the thought of Bill Gates entertaining the idea as plausible scares the crap out of me. I guess you would if you were as big a shit talker as he is. Heck why doesn't keep it and rake in the money? Well for one the lawsuits this thing is going to manufacture when people get sick from it. And are people with brains and not shredded dollars for brains going to welcome it?
But the thought? Gross! Still like Billy Gates? Still think he is all for the human race? Still think he can be trusted being a part of our healthcare through vaccines and god know what else he promotes. He is delusional and seriously needs to be permanently evaluated at some psychiatric facility somewhere, permanently!
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Let's Just Stab Everybody Today!

I am a skeptic. Worse than a skeptic is my continuous conspiracy search. Well, not really always searching, just not trusting. It isn't my fault. I just woke up. Blame the Government or the Fed's or even my father who gave me the 'politically inquisitive gene' to begin with. Truth is there wouldn't be a need to question every major mass crime if the government didn't see us as idiots or blind or...the sheeple most are. Some of us are smarter than they give us credit and they really should stop trying to go to such elaborate schemes to over take us...or what ever their agenda is at the time.

Let's talk about the latest. The Murrysville Stabbing. First you have to remember Sandy Hook and how they ripped our hearts out by staging the deaths of 26 or so elementary kids. All the suckers the Government counts on did their 'shame on you for questioning such a tragedy, they were kids after all' in an attempt to make people like myself not force people like them to think about it. They liked their pitiful blind sorrow. Still truth be told, much came of that incident. Obama wanted to enforce gun laws and using practically babies to get the general public on his side really opened our eyes and some folks that were completely shut. Thank You Obamashithead for letting us know how low you would stoop. 

Then you have to remember the amazing Boston Bombings that were also found to be a big ol fuck you from the system in order to practice their door to door sales pitch of unconstitutional searches. I won't even tell you what I think about the poor guy they framed but I will say I don't think anyone lost a limb for some reason. If they did I am sure it was an accident.

But now it is the Murrysville stabbing that deserves attention because deep down in my gut I say something isn't right, it is.....off a bit. Maybe it did happen and the gov't has twisted my head to a degree I can't twist it back to where it once was and I can no longer believe these mass crazy man unimaginable scenes do happen. Let's run through it.

A 16 year old kid wakes up in not the best or sanest of moods and goes to school around 7am like any other day. He must not have had time to say "hi bestie" because once in side (according to the news) he just whooped out two 10 inch kitchen knifes (guess dad didn't keep a gun) and began stabbing people, including according to the news, his own besties. Though they did not name them of course. 

He goes from room to room and down the hall stabbing EVERYONE! He wrestles one kid to the ground and stabs him and even a 200 pound security cop (if only this cop had a gun) gets cut unable to overtake this 90 pound kid? The vice principle can though and with out getting cut. Super incompetent cop at least had handcuffs. I guess everyone has a use of some kind. Then in the midst of this the fire alarm is pulled helping to add to the chaos. They say it's a good thing, if this event happened it is a good thing. If this event did not really happen as everyone thinks then I'd say it was a great strategic move to create chaos and add to their illusion with what could be blood bags and screams "Run, he has a knife!!!!" and you know how people are, they certainly must have seen something and so must everyone else as well. It is so easy to accept hearsay, especially in high school. 

Ultimately the scrawny pimple faced kid is arrested, students are relocated, surveillance is with held, hospitals fill up and reporters report what they are told. It's over they say from the first strike of the knives to the handcuffs all of 5 whole minutes. 22 attacks, two wrestles to the floor, room to room and down the hallway all in 5 whole minutes. Can it be done? 

Question: Where was he hiding these two 10 inch kitchen knives walking toward and into the building? Backpack? Coat? Did anyone see him take them out or did and laughed until he stabbed them. You know how kids are. In what order where the kids stabbed? I want the details. They have a list of names, tell us! How many were near the exit after being stabbed? Did any of the 22 run for the door? or did they huddle in the hall hoping he returned towards them to finish them off. If any ran out then where the blood on the sidewalks, or out front of these exits. I want to know details!

Then the news. I wasn't really suspicious much until I saw a clip of a Dr Chris Kaufmann give a very brief description of the wounds. I bolted upright and thought "Wow Dr Carver from the Sandy Hook incident has a twin brother!" What are the odd that the doctors from Conn to PA, connected by tragedy could look so much alike they could be the same person. Are they the same person? I accelerated into conspiracy overdrive from that moment on, now seeking inconsistencies. 

I then saw a picture of the scene and what I thought was a cop standing near an ambulance turned out to be a cop near an ambulance looking truck. Red and white as they commonly are but with 'Salvation Army' all over it. Was I seeing things? Why would the Salvation Army be at a crime scene? I understand they are available for disasters such as house fires, tornadoes or earthquakes. Maybe local things where blankets, food and shelter are needed. I was not aware they had ambulatory expertise as well. 

I understand that bayflight was necessary except the helicopters I saw in the news video were not bayflight. They were army helicopters. Now maybe they called the national guard but I wondered why they were the only ones I saw. Why not a quick bayflight copter passing by since these were so easily viewed?

Then the kids. The many besties. There were two that stood out. I expected the media talking randomly to many kids since there were so many kids witnessing the event but no, they interviewed less than 10. So out of 200 kids only 6-10 are questioned. I say question everyone! Good reporter will want to talk live to as many as possible even if they didn't get stabbed or only heard screams of impending scratches and possible death. But our reporters are not what they used to be, are they?

Good old Nate Scimio everyone tags as the hero who pulled the fire alarm and certainly saved many lives. I kind of thought "what a punk" Like no teen would take advantage of pulling a fire alarm thinking a good joke would be played. I wonder if he was cut before or after he pulled it. He will say before and that he thought in all this "I should pull the fire alarm to get help" Not that all kinds of adult teachers were already aware of what was happening and apparently did nothing. Kids are resilient after all, they can take care of each other. Not one interview from one teacher or mention of in any news reel I saw. No one finds that odd? So Nate is the hero of the day. I still say he is no more a hero than Bugs Bunny on a good day. After all the trauma, quick thinking and unbeknownst to him if any of his friends were dead Nate takes a selfie of his bandaged up scratch on the arm. I looked up his Facebook page because all teens have Facebook pages, and discovered not a personal page but a group page. So my daughter and I read almost all the messages left for this heroic narcissistic boy and found that none of the comments were local. No parents, teachers or fellow students made a comment. Just out of towners. A lot of sheeple people. What we also wondered about this public page that was put up the day the stabbings took place was how he got some still frame surveillance picture of, what he says, was the incident? The media had no surveillance footage yet. How did he?

Let's go to Brett Hart and Gracey Evans. They are besties you know. Brett saved her life and she tried to save his. Two hero's at once. That makes 4 hero's if you include the vice principal.
Pretty cool. Movies only have one. There is a problem I have with Miss Gracey. This would be her at ease, I love this attention smile on her face. Are all the kids at this school this self centered and narcissistic. What else would you call it. Smiles and selfies galore.
The thought did go through my mind that Actors and Actresses love when the camera is on them. So, if this event happened I suggest Gracey should pursue the acting industry since her smile on camera really does shine. She didn't show a hint of nervousness or humble be that I am! She will probably just settle for nursing since she did such a heroic job of helping her bestie Brett to control the bleeding on his back.

Brett is a hero too. He jumped in front of Gracey to save her life and took a knife right in the back. Not one senior alfa male had the guts to gather together and jump this pimple face knife wheeling brat the size of a 12 year old but Brett will jump directly into the line of fire and take a good slice for the poor deer shocked girl. I'm still baffled over the things we do, or convince others we did, during a chaotic moment. This isn't the real issue I have with Brett though. I watched as he babbled about impending death as he sat and leaned comfortably back in his wheelchair (I assume) only 24 hours after he took a slice deep enough into his back to pierced his lung. Wouldn't it be a wee bit dangerous to be sitting up in front of cameras dressed in his usual attire (shirt looked snug on his body) as if he was discharged already (and he could have I suppose) giving interviews. How good are those meds that he can lean back, with his penetrating cut to his lung, on the chair? I would think it would be a little sore to say the least.

These are very unusual hero's. Hero number four is the vice principle what's his name. The guy that stopped the pimple faced boy. This man must be very humble indeed because he hasn't given one interview that I saw. It is all about the kids after all. Since there isn't much to say about him let's move on to the one who is the cause of this ordeal, Alex Hribal.

Interesting Character Alex and his family is. Described as a family resembling Ozzie and Harriet and The Brady Bunch. Laughing yet? Alex was so loved and close to his brother (I don't know his name or if he is older or younger than Alex) and parents that no one showed up at his arraignment or was able to visit him for at least 48 hours. (I would have fought to see my kid even if it was just a glimpse at the arraignment) I would want to hear from him regarding the WHY aspect of things. But the parents are probably more worried what the community thinks of them now and will soon be planning a move out of town. If it really happened they will have to because of all the death threats that will be forth coming and if it didn't happen they will have to move because....well it's what crises actors do, go home.

The news media shows Alex in a hospital gown. Question: Was he even in a hospital? I saw him leave two exits on two occasions from the same place. The police station. Question: Where was he going out the front and back of the police in a gurney no less? Where are his clothes? No orange murder jumpsuit to walk out and back and out, in and in again the cruiser wearing a gurney to somewhere. Courthouse? Do they go to arraignment in a gurney?

I did look up Alex's facebook page and found it. It was at 4 am the following morning of the stabbings. I realized there wasn't any friends and just teen pics of a bands or games...I don't know stupid shit. What caught my eye was the fact that someone went on and changed his profile picture two hours prior. Why? A picture of some comical cartoon character with a saying. This means either his parents or brother or Alex himself went on and changed one pic while Alex was supposed to be in jail. Why? One reason could be because Alex was never in jail. I could be wrong, I suppose somebody was just finding humor in changing his profile picture. Maybe as surprise joke kind of thing when he gets out. I saw how serious everyone was during the interviews. It's like 'The Stepford Kids' and one malfunctioned. The following day his facebook page was gone altogether.


I did find the pretty miss Mia Mitzner's facebook page. Just a pretty girl who witness someone get stabbed. One common denominator between all these kids was a total and complete lack of tears. No tears while describing blood, freinds, violence....none, really?  A shiver or shake? Something human? Nothing. Well I studied what I could see on Mia's facebook (since I'm not her friend and don't want to be) and thought what a popular and pretty girl. She had lots of friends and some pictures. Many I was unable to see but those I could had some teen besties, probably mom, some in the parking lot of a church, others on a sandy beach. Then I had to do that obsessive conspiracy thing, I thought of Sandy Hook. Her picture I was able to view all looked like a vacation. Fun in the sun with friends. Maybe PA and maybe not. Vacations are usually away from home. All were summer or at least warm weather and bathing suits. Maybe they travelled this winter because it's still cold here in the state she and I share. It was the only explanation I could find as to why she wouldn't have any winter pictures up. Then I saw the last date of use was some time ago. I don't know why it just stops, most teens are pretty up to date.

I thought for a moment maybe this event really did happen and society is so worse off than I thought. Then I remembered all the fake facebook families from Sandy Hook. It was well presented until we realized they were actors and the kids did not die. They just wanted the gun law passed. I can't say this event at Murrysville never happened with certainty I can only say I did question it and have many unanswered questions. Questions I fear we may never get answered.

There would have to be a benefit to this. Sandy Hook was Guns, Boston Bombing was martial law, but what would this be? Tighter security. One touch lock down button in every school or was it less complex?

~There are many reasons to stage a drill/false flag in the schools. One is desensitizing the kids to be separated and transported without question by officials, and for the parents being separated from their kids without question and with complete trust that the officials will bring the kids to safety. More and more security, more distrust of one another. Makes it easier to rat friends out regardless of how they act or appear (have no trust in one another over the law) and the 'It could be anybody you know' concept. Training the young to obey.~

Don't feed kids right, they may live

According to Dr Martha Rivera "we live in a society that loves to eat hot, spicy, not real foods" I agree. This is ok if your an adult and decides you want to destroy your health in careless ways, but don't you at least have an obligation to try to start your kids off right!
Remember the days when we told our kids "your not leaving the table until you eat those vegetables" Do kids even eat at tables anymore, let alone have ever heard those words?"
I think today is more like "we eat when I get to McDonalds, now go play your game" There are no more 'special treats' for kids anymore. According to one mom her son eats Flamin hot cheeto's at least 20-30 times a month. That's everyday. Not a Friday night, family night snack, but every day. Good going mom!
The only obstacle parents are seeing it seems is that these particular kind of cheetos are sending kids to the hospital because they really are flamin hot! What ever happened to the Apple or celery sticks! But ADHD lil Johnny might not eat it, and it cost money. If he isn't going to eat it and take a tantrum we should just give him what he wants with his "calm down while I get you your 'be a good boy' pill."
There is good news now though, the schools are withdrawing these flamin chips and other non food dietary because they say "there is no nutritional value" Really? How many years of education did it take the schools to figure that out? Maybe they should have consulted a grandmother to ask 'what would be of value to a child's health?"
Well now that schools will offer Apples I suppose they won't be wondering if it to may lack nutrition either, or is it a GMO foods?
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Those could be perfect parents

They don't give names in this article and with good reason. Some strangers may just get personal about this situation. An 8 year old adoptive boy, unwanted from birth it seems is also unwanted by his adoptive parents. At first I thought "Awful parents, would you dump your own off like that?" I continue to read thinking "must be one heck of a brat" but then the parents or ex parents complained, with an officers as witness as well, that the child, only 8 remember, was saying he was "going to kill everyone in the house" with a knife. Now I am thinking "A Dangerous brat" Naturally they go on to say he has 'mental issues' Seems to be a common phrase I don't recall hearing 15 years back. But today we are all mental or most everyones mental including most kids.
Then the article obviously refers to the child being on heavy medications for these severe mental issues. He was even hospitalized twice for his 'mental issues' Then I realized these parents are idiots. The child is only 8 and I would say 'a victim' of the hip hop drug m up in-thing to do to people these days!
It is more likely he may have been abused, acted out and then administered the 'keep in check' drug of choice. The abuse by the adoptive parents (we don't know his age at the time of adoption though it seems he was much younger) or by his previous parents is almost insignificant except to say that the 'medication' is not working....AT ALL!!!
Let's say weather abused or not they started drugging this emotional unwanted child at the age of 4 when we develope expression verbally and otherwise. Say he was 'depressed', 'mean to other kids' and 'hyperactive' so we give him pills....everyday for the past how ever many years. (2 or 4 perhaps)
Maybe these meds not for him and now his brain, unable to function properly is abnormally growing thanks to the abundance of pills or that switch a roo pill testing docs love to do. While the parents complain 'But Dr stupidman, he isn't adjusting to these, he is still running abound the house and refuses to watch tv!!!!" and Dr. Stupidman responds "It's ok Mrs. Dumbfuckalltohell, we can try another medication on him" Get my point people?
I wonder if some long term good old fashion counseling and parental love would have worked if these idiot parents and doctors didn't decide to stunt the kids brain growth with whatever new and improved cure all pill is out at the time.
What are we learning here?
Well if no one loves you and you react you have mental issues and if you act up you will be abandoned by those who obviously don't love you and there is no love in the world, because your mental. here